Sunday, July 15, 2007
For Anaz..
And maybe Kar also ler, but at least she's more updated than Anya in FunFunFunChristendomPlaceinVirginia.
Sigh
So.
I thought he had commitment issues.
I found out he just didn't like me that way.
I got rejected twice.
But.
We still message almost everyday. For hours on end. My inbox has 190 messages right now. Sometimes it has 300++. More than 95% will be from his number.
We still hang out. Heck, it's not even that casual bump into each other hang out. We make plans. And put time aside for each other.
We still emo. Okay la, I emo. Right now I'm angry fustrated sad at him because he won't open up to me and tell me his problems and hence make me feel useless.
and Dammit.
I feel desperate.
I need to know he's okay.
My hands damn bloody itchy. Cannot keep away from phone.
It's cliched but I've never felt like this before. With previous experiences there was always a nagging little voice or feeling. This feels right somehow. Oh god touch wood don't jinx me.
He's perfect.
There's actually no such thing as perfection so I dunno what the hell I'm talking about.
I can't control myself.
CAN SLAP ME ARRRR??
There's a whole novel behind all this. Maybe one day I will type it all up in an email for you. Soon la soon okay?
Anya. I miss you.. PLEASE BRING BACK SOME HOT CHAP CHUNGS!
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Penang photos
Then we went to the beach, where some of us jsut donned sunnies and poyohed with the camera while lying on the mat...
Saturday, June 02, 2007
The First Week
The partners are very nice and friendly and patient enough to take the time to show the noob around and layan my bumbling questions.
The customers are alright, there hasn't been a particular horrid customer that I've had to layan, although honestly speaking, being in the F&B line is a real eye-opener. There are a lot of regulars that frequent the MV store, particularly expats. And of course, there's the eccentric regular. He's got a shaggy beard, and hardly says anything except "TWO.TWO!" *makes peace sign* I think he prefers female baristas though heeeeheeee.
Linda keeps cursing me and reminding me not to fall, trip or spill drinks.
In my first week I have:
spilt two drinks
tripped
made wrong drinks
cut my thumbS on the plastic covers
...
...
yeah.
It's all good. :D Closing shift tonight. I like it the best. The guys make me laugh like crazy.
Monday, May 28, 2007
Gainfully Employed
Am not dead, MIA, or decapitated.
Am gainfully employed HEHEHEHEHEEEEE!
If you're free, you can find me at Starbucks, MV for the next two weeks.
No free coffee though. My perks are MINE, MINE I TELL YOU! Opening shifts for the next two days, one middle shift, then closing on Friday and Saturday. Lunch with me pretty pleaaaasee :D
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Post Mortem Sem 3
PR - OMG. wtf. This was supposed to be THE subject I was going to score for.. whyyyyy. Can die la. I went in reciting SOLAADS to myself for the press release and I came out speechless. CCB! Good thing my assignments are okay. Expected grade : B+
IDP - Probably the subject where we enjoyed being in the lab. Mr. Phua's first lesson bored the shizz out of us, but that was it. He made up for it and more by blasting Reagan every class. Ho Ho Ho, miss him or not, Reagan? Assignments were above and beyond considering our last minutes. Jeezuz, VERY last minute tau. Like that week itself. Hur hur hur. Expected grade: B+
IMC - Again, expected this to be pretty tough. But again it was a surprise. The only paper besides IDP where I came out early. Expected grade : B ( I did quite poorly for assignments)
Academic Writing - Bleh. I told everybody to study response essays and critique essays but I myself forgot what to actually respond about. Bleh. Expected Grade : B+
As soon as AW was over, I went to Brickfields to buy liquor at Vans' (ho ho ho) and then chill at Starbucks and teach Thomas how to play Uno. -_-' Then Kitty's buffet Dinner. And chilling some atas place in Bangsar where young looking ang moh boys shisha-ed and boozed. Young enough to be still squeaking in unbroken voices. Young enough to not be hot. Tsk. Kids these days...
Am going to Linda's house now. Penang in twelve hours. See you on Wednesday :D
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Release Tension.. among other things
I really must start hardcore studying. Except I left my notebook in Tun's car, and I won't see him till at least tomorrow, so it gives me a feeble excuse to procrastinate till then.
Plus I keep thinking about Penang. :D
Things related to Penang
Pack dammit!
Make chocolate peanut butter cups to eat on the way there
Sleepover at my place on Saturday, then Linda's on Sunday
Buy aviators
Buy my freaking hoodie
And while I'm at Penang:
Eat har gau
Eat real Penang Char Kuey Teow
Eat Penang Sotong Kangkung. Okay, I don't actually care if it's Penang or not, I just need my sotong fix...
Rise with the sun with Eddie
Beach stroll at night
Suntan
SHHOPPPPPIIIINNNGGGGG
Fairy on Ferry with Lily
Twister :D I can see Linda laughing with glee
Jacuzzi. Someone remind me to bring bubble bath please
Shots!
and with shots come drinking games...
Buy mom's belacan... -_-"
Do a bit of praying at Kek Lok Si for good results
See TURTLES!! (the only real reason I want to go to Kek Lok Si actually)
Wax The Hairy Bear that is Grandpa Thomas. * Omg Linda will have the most fun with this
Monday, April 30, 2007
Wish, not Hope
So I Wish. But not Hope. Never never never Hope.
Gettit?
"Abandon Hope, all ye who enter"
Such an apt warning for matter such as this.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Name : Yuen
Birth Date : 16th April
Current Status : Single
Eye Colour : black
Right of lefty : Righty
LAYER 2 : ON THE INSIDE
My Heritage : Cina = Canton+Hakka
My Fears : Heights + loneliness + Elevators closing on me
My Weaknesses : My Brain
My Perfect Pizza : Pepperoni, crab meat, mayo, mushrooms, beef, without the pizza.
LAYER 3 : YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
My thoughts first waking up : Gargh.. Comfy.. *snuggle*
My bedtime : before midnight laaa
My most missed memory : Kindergarden
LAYER 4 : MY PICK
Pepsi or Coke : Coke la, hands down.
McDonald's or Burger King : Burger King for the swiss double, McD's for everything else
Single or grouped dates : Who cares as long as I'm on one
Adidas or Nike : Adis! PINK PINK PINK ADIS
Tea or Nestea : Nestea is coffee, right?... SAY COFFEE LA! Chinese tea.
Chocolate or Vanilla : Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee : coffee
LAYER 5 : DO YOU...
Smoke : Not now, I don't
Curse : Heeee...
Take a shower : aboden
Have a crush : Yar
Think you've been in love : Nah
Go to school : college, yes
Want to get married : HarHarHar
Believe in yourself : Yes and no
LAYER 6 : IN THE PAST
Drank alcohol : Yes, Duh
Gone to the mall : wtf...
Been on stage : Unfortunately yes
Eaten sushi : Yes! <3
Dyed your hair : nope, I have virgin hair
LAYER 7 : HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game : Yeah, strip pool with Chand. We stopped after I took off my jacket.
Changed who you were to fit in : Not to fit in, no
LAYER 8 : AGE YOU'RE HOPING
To be married : Before I die. Before. I duno. 30?
LAYER 9 : IN A GUY...
Best eye colour : Dark Coloured
Best hair colour : Dark Coloured
Short hair or long hair : As long as it's zexyyyy. And is soft.
LAYER 10 : WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A minute ago : Reading comics of bald headed emo blobs
Hour ago : Watching CSI
4.5 hours ago : Just woke up from evening nap
1 month ago : Assignments probably
Year ago : Assignments probably
LAYER 11 : FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love : friends and Eddie
I feel : Eddie poking my leg right now
I hate : so many whiny people
I hide : tummy fats
I miss : eating cookies and being thin
I need : a massage and salonplas badly
LAYER 12 : TAG 5 PEOPLE
Calvin HAH!
Linda
Surekha
Anaz
Nerd Queen
Monday, April 23, 2007
Tag
5 Reasons Why I Blog:
#1 : I have too much randomness and quirkiness that I cannot express in real life for fear that I will be alienated and committed to a mental institution. So it spills over to writing.
#2: I have practically no life. So I spend whatever free time I have online. Or sleeping. Or falling asleep while online. So #1 just happens to be a convenient outlet.
#3: Er. It's useful to remind myself of what I used to be like. I usually avoid reading past entries from long ago because I just feel like slapping myself. But yes, it's like many many benchmarks of what I used to be, what I have become and perhaps also an indicator of what I may be.
#4: I like the idea of owning something personal, can?
#5: ... Um.. I like.. to.. put my pictures can!?! Eh no la, I like to show off my pretty pretty friends :D
Omg, everytime I read about online feuds between people like.. er.. Xiaxue and all her commenters and whatnots, I always thought "Eh quite mo liu. Her blog let her say what she wants la. So emo, like kill your kitten like that burn your family shit on your car liddat. Jeesh". And now. BWAAAAHAHAHAHH. Someone slap me can? But if everybody's going to be so high and mighty about everything, let them think what they want la. I'm gonna brush it off, everything also got some over the top comment, jeeesuuuusss, LET'S THINK OF PENANG!
yes
PENANG!
Wheeeeee. 22 days left.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
*sigh*
Sometimes when I see accidents happen, I get very shuddery thoughts. Especially if you see firemen pull people out of the wreckage or worse still, putting inside black trash bags. Very sombre-ing. Accidents are accidents; unprecedented, unexpected, unwanted. Whenever I see this type of thing in real life, not just reading about it, then only does it have any sort of impact. Reading about it or hearing about it from the media just feels very disconnected. And when any sort of impact takes hold, I think of people. And how I feel about them. And what I last said to them, and what I didn't say to them.
I'd really hate to have any regrets. Any advice I ever give is centred on my philosophy to live life without regrets. And so, IF I ever. er. fly to fairyland.. I want :
To tell him I miss him and that I'm sorry and that I just really really want things back the way they were before the week.
To tell her that as complicated as it seems now, everything will get better. As long as she's happy and NO REGRETS then best la.
To tell him that I was so turned off by him at camp, so if he's going to talk all over the place about THAT people should know the full story. DAMAGE CONTROL. If I'm going off to fairyland, for crissakes, lemme clear my rep.
To tell her that I think she's a horrible example of a friend, but I wish her luck anyway, but good luck having any contentment in life thirty years down the road if all that's in her head is superficiality.
To tell him thanks for being the best male friend, and that I sincerely wish him all the fun and happiness and that he will settle down when he meets the right person :D
To tell her that I truly admire her maturity and courage to speak her mind and form her own opinions
To tell him that I sayang him banyak banyak and that I want nothing more than for him to be motivated
To tell them they were the highlight of my years because now when I think back, I can't remember anything as clearly as them
To tell her I wish she'd have given me space to be myself
To tell him that it's not his fault, and that it was me who has changed
To hug him and be manja-ed again
***
For Linda : here's one more addition to my entree for today's LIFE game.
Beach. Night. Stars. Sand.
I can stand close and not feel janggal.
Things will feel normal again.
The sea will wave. And we won't wave back.
Cause we're too in the moment to move.
Monday, April 16, 2007
Saturday, April 07, 2007
0013
That's what my life needs. Good clear guidelines to follow. Can see black, can see white. No grey areas, no vague questions, all clear rules to obey, all also can see right and wrong.
I feel damn blardy full right now. The effects of one small ice blended ribena and a bigger one with longans at Williams with some of the college peeps. Plus a few bites of Meatball Spaghetti and Reagan's leftover ManBurger. Plus the fact that I had just finished my curry laksa dinner just before I left the house. *burp* But my lips are slightly purple. So is my tongue :D It's probably for the best that I had dinner at home, I find it more and more difficult to eat in public anymore. Shizz that, I find it difficult to eat with people.
It's always fun to hang out at yumcha sessions; but like it has been happening lately, I end up like this. In need of clarification. The importance of clarifying certain things to people has never been more important as of late.
I have a terribly fragile sensitive ego. My ego is like. Some sickly withering Pokok Semalu. Touch also will shrivel up and die dot com. My ego is bonded with my self perception. My self perception is bonded with all the messages that I receive from people. I secretly care wan, okay. Sometimes when I say I terasa.. I really really terasa. Then I will console myself with ribena.
Sometimes I wonder if ribena can be used as a benchmark for my emotions. That'd make me bankrupt. So when I'm at home and in my bed, like right now, my benchmark is my bolster.
And right now it's being hugged to death.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
My Personality
What others see from your style
You tend to be a gentle and pleasant person. You love nature and at least some of the arts, and derive great satisfaction from being helpful. You are stubborn and are not interested in wealth and power.
What your nightclothes reveal
You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.
What others see from your ties
You enjoy being alone. You like to life the simple but good life, and you cherish your freedom. You are thoughtful, confident and uninterested in glamour.
What others see from your belts
You are a frank, assertive and sometimes flamboyant person. You are friendly and want to be accepted by everybody. You like to have fun, to be free, and to live a comfortable lifestyle.
What others see from your shoes
You're very young at heart. You regard freedom highly and don't like to be controlled by a set of rules. You don't like conflict, will compromise wherever possible, and are hardworking people. Occasionally you can become vulnerable when having to face problems, especially emotional ones.
What others see from your earrings
You are a sweet and talkative person. You are sociable, energetic and interesting, and get easily bored by the same old things. You are always looking for adventure.
The last analysis
You are probably a romantic and passionate person. You are sensitive and lonely when you aren't in love. You can be somewhat self-centered, but you are honest and sincere to others. You like to make a good impression of yourself and worry about what others think of you.
Sniff sniff. I love you guys!!
You value your friendships: 65%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.
But this takes the cake...
Who is your dream guy?
Here is the analysis:According to your answers; if you are not kidding, you are too complicated. Sorry, we are unable to offer the analysis. Press Back button on you browser, check ONE question that you were not completely sure and try again with a different answer that you think it would be correct.
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
2239
bad for brain.
I don't feel like celebrating anything to do with my birthday this year. At least not right now. Last year I had a great time, great food, great company,flowers, awesome presents, sleepover, skanky sitting on lap photos.. ahhhh.. If I can't top that this year I don't even want to try.
Btw, thanks for the card jie. I'm going to think that you were too busy to actually go buy one, but hey, it's the thought that counts. Although I have to say, when I saw separate cards, I thought I would be getting more than one signature *ahemahem*. Hehe, joking la joking.
Anyway, it's happened again. But as usual nothing will come out of it. No good no good no good. Don't think. Be content. Omg, why am I blogging like Rosie O Donnell.
And on a final pissy note. OMFG. How the hell did the whole district know??? I mean, if you say the Family, okay la, understood, I was close to most of them, but why la. My life is so nothing to talk about, suddenly I find out about this 3 years later. Can jump off Kurnia.
I mean, come on. The DISTRICT.
I cannot let this be. Must must must settle. Yes, it was 3 years ago, and it shouldn't matter now, and yes, it doesn't affect me since we're in totally different social circles. But JENGJENGJENG, I have principles. And still that bit of pride left. Cannot cannot cannot let people think like this about me. Must do damage control!
The DISTRICT WEI!!
Monday, April 02, 2007
Mass Colympics - Extreme!

Su and Flo preparing for war
Like I said, the lecturers were damn kau supporting. I think the fact that we had a really cool concept like paintball that was more challenging and awesome helped quite a bit.
Hitz.fm DJ Ian/Ean and somebody's iguana
Cheryl and Beh flaunting the fear factor challege
Cheryl, Edmund, and Beh
Ash pleading Jeff for a sip. That's MY drink, btw.
War going on
Aina and Ash
Ribena - Drink of the Champions!
Part Group Shot
The semi-finals match
Kit with Dip. Sem 1 (March) - the paintball champions of 07Sunday, April 01, 2007
Eduardo




Saturday, March 24, 2007
Mass Colympics
Mass Colympics!!!
Paintball - Addictive, Adrenaline-inducing and AWESOME, Paintball is the closest some of us will get to war! Plus, the lecturers have their own team :D
Obstacle Course - For those less inclined to play paintball, and who prefer a more mentally challenging, less physically demanding aspect of the event. It's simple, FUN, and well. Wet. HEHEHEHE
Dodgeball - Fast, agile and crazily havoc! You've seen the movie, that's how it's done.
Goodie Bags, Freebies, Havoc time, Havoc music, Have a day off from college and hang out with your peers!
So come okay!
Friday, 30th March 2007 : 8a.m. - 12 p.m. approx
TT Sports Park, Near Sheraton Subang and Holiday Villa
Transportation Provided
Support Sem 3, PR majors!
Call Me Fairy
Agh, it's midnight and I'm becoming random. Today's outing was a total bleh, kena ffk like mad, no movie, NO SHOPPING. But got good food, booze and company. Okay laaaa
So
I like Guinness
I like Sheperd's Pie
I want more earrings
I like Salonplas smell
I'm becoming despo. But no emo when no thoughts
I become sleepy after I've had booze. Eeee, so malufiying
lalalalala
Friday, March 23, 2007
I smell old
The right shoulder has been aching a lot lately, especially in the afternoons after classes where it gets really stiff and at night when I'm using the mouse on the couch. When I'm in college, it helps that there's Linda's PokyThinFingers to rub away the pain for a bit, or Edmund's magic massage which turns me to jelly, but when I'm at home, there's only so much area my short left hand can reach, plus I'm not a very efficient self-massager. So when today's ache was too much to take, I dug out an old free sample of Salonpas, one of those medicated plasters.
So now I smell old. In a funky sorta way. But not bad. It's really heaty/cooling, I can't quite tell, but it seems to be lessening the pain slightly anyhow.
Good lord, I'm barely 19 and I'm already using old people things.
It's almost April! - Recap on New Year Resolutions.
RESOLUTIONS
1. Stop swearing so much. Flush down the toilet la.
2. Stop dropping and killing Zen. I have new pouch for it! Haven't dropped it since I got the new replacement. So far, So good.
3. Not trip (so much) and be unstable as before. Linda's probably laughing at this one right now...
4. OMG this should be number one - STUDY MORE CONSISTENTLY. Wth, totally forgot about this, but I'm doing okay la for assignments. Can pass safely on finals
5. Be less drama and emo. I think so yes yes, I'm so chill.
6. Be a really great friend and remember their birthdays. :D!!! We solved the mystery of Reagan's birthday this year
7. I will not hate valentines this year. Or dread it. And I didn't! I can't remember anything about it, except sms-es, a half-empty PR class, and eating McDs behind the lecture theater.
8. Don't kill the cacti. Still alive, except one.
9. Find minions, I mean, companions to join Rotaract with. No more interest. *flush*
10. Meet up with the girls a heck of a lot more before they go flying off to their tertiary institutions. I haven't seen them since CNY! And KarBear didn't even come! :(
TO ACHIEVE
1. Grow hair long long long. Slightly above middle of back. Not counted la.
2. Get a guy to serenade me :D Edmund was karaoke-ing in his car to emo song. Cannot remember title, but it was a serenading sort of song. If by end year this is not fulfilled, I shall cheat with this anedote
3. Hike up CGPA by Dec '07 to a 3.33 Currently have no idea what my GPA is right now. Not too bad I suppose.
4. Get. The. Car. And if any of you start making smartass comments, I'll hunt you down. So shush........shut up.
5. Master the DSLR.....Waiting for Camera Fair.
6. Upgrade shoe collection. T_T
7. Get back my reading habit by reading at least 6 new books this year. Harry Potter doesn't count. Have not read anything. Disgraceful!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Online Favorites
With the amount of time I spent with Hugh on my lap, it's a miracle I haven't developed radioactive related diseases. I estimate I spend an average of 6 hours every day during the week and 9 hours per day during the weekends. 13, If I'm not shopping or it's a paticularly boring weekend.
With all that time spent online, I've racked up a long list of favorite websites that I frequent everyday without fail.
Pink Is The New Blog - a gossip website run by Trent, a dude who has an affinity for hot pink stars, hot pink fonts, hot pink everything!
The Superficial - not very regularly updated, but the author has the most absurd comments.
Perez Hilton - I have to be honest, I'm not very fond of his style of criticizing the celebs. I feel he's a bit harsh and overly mean without much reason, overly-dramatic, hypocritical, and too much of a wannabe. Plus, his drawings (if you can call it that) are extremely crude. That said, his site is the most up to date one. Which is the only reason why I visit his site regularly.
Snippets of Life - I do not like kids. No, don't give me that look. I do not like kids. But Karen Cheng's kids are so cute and adorable and they DON'T WHACK ME WITH BALLOONS! She's a mom in Aussie and this site is like a mini journal of her kids growing up with happenings in her community on the side. A lovely side read. Like a nice salad.
PostSecret - PostSecret was featured on a music video before, I just can't remember which. It was some emo rock band video, but they had people hold up postcards of their secrets. PostSecret is like the emo site for non-emo people. Inspiring, Heart-breaking, Thought-provoking and random; PostSecret is my Sunday weekly fix. Sometimes more when I need to read something emo.
Silverfish stories - Some people will have heard of Silverfish books, the bookstore that stores an eclectic choice of books in Bangsar. They're like this independent movement that pioneers for the reading and writing culture in Malaysia. I like to read their writer's section, because the short stories show a real honest reflection of Malaysian culture with usually good plots.
Kaypopotamus - A site manned by Jenhan, a senior in my college, . The posts are usually accompanied by mind-blowing shots of everyday life. Jenhan may never know it, but I have to credit this site and the author for being one of the main reasons that led me to my passion for photography. If ever I had to recommend a blog to read for comedy, and that is thought provoking, well written and entertaining, as well as brilliant to look at, it would be this. Hands down. He's quite the accomplished comedian now, I would say, and I think he'll be HUGE ten years down the line. Maybe even sooner. Okay enough sucking up wtf.
Louis Pang - Wedding Photographer - Er. Yeah. Really la, I read this regularly even though I'm not bloody planning weddings. His photos are different la. You know when you see your auntie's cousin's daughter's brother in law punya wedding photo???? Yeah. So poser right. Not natural, hardly memorable, no moments captured.All the photos usually look like poser shots of a Bollywood scene. I think that's a big mistake many people are becoming more aware of, thank God, since more young people are getting married, and they know more of what counts during the wedding. People like Kid Chan, Louis Pang, Alvin Leong are the new IT wedding photographers, man.
Ctrl+Alt+Del - Hehe. Geek Comic!!! But it's cute la...It's like teh l33t of Simpsons.
Waiter Rant - Rantings and anecdotes of a waiter regarding his career, life, and mishaps that happen in the workplace. Makes for an entertaining read. Ever since reading this, I would like to think I've become nicer to those in the restaurant business :D










